reconstruction consultation

i was really looking forward to my reconstruction appointment on friday morning. but i don't think i like the surgeon. and that bums me out because now the process just became a little harder, needs a little more effort, and it already felt pretty intense.

so. not that a surgeon needs the best bedside manner to be a good surgeon. BUT, in that department, he wasn't good at all. came in. said, so i guess this is an informational session? then asked me what questions i had for him. i knew what questions to ask because i'd already had a consultation with a dr. in denver before my mastectomy...but i still wasn't sure i was asking all the right questions.

anyway, the final thing he did was show me 3 pictures of his "results." and they totally weren't good! i was so disappointed. one of them you could basically SEE the implants. the other ones? they just didn't look right.

so i tried to take a few steps back. wondered if maybe my expectations were too high. so i looked online for pictures of reconstruction surgeries. of course, i found some horribly scary ones. but mostly i just found normal looking ones that looked way better than the ones my dr. showed me. so. i'm disappointed. and now i have to do some research into finding a better doc.

but.
what i did find out is...
1) the entire procedure will take 9-12 months.
2) i will definitely have to get the other boob enlarged.
3) i will probably need to be out of work for 7-10 days for each of the two surgeries.
4) the implants last about 15 years and you can only tell if they are failing through mri's - which i should get once a year.
hm.
all in all, it just doesn't sound that great.