god, it's so boring to write about pain and to be in pain. it was much more fun to write about all the good stuff. wah.
well, yesterday i spoke to an on-call surgery doc about my pain. he was dismissive. which felt really nice.
he finally listened to me and agreed to prescribe me something more powerful. so my nice mom drove to kaiser to pick up my new prescription. i took my first dose at 3:30pm. and from about 8:30-10:30pm, i was in tons of pain again. after taking my second dose at 9:30pm, i was in serious pain from 3:30-5:30am. uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
so now i'm waiting for my favorite dr. simonds to call me back. to tell me what to do. cause i'm SO.SICK. of feeling like this.
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
-Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi 1207-1273, written in 1230
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