well...this weekend has been a bit of a rollercoaster.
yesterday i felt so run down. it's really hard to describe...but i felt like my muscles had been turned into tubes...tubes that mushed and hurt and ached all over. and the aching didn't subside with massages or stretching or anything. it was just a weird pain in my sides and where a shirt collar would be and around my sinuses.
today i feel better. today the pain isn't as pronounced. but i'm pretty foggy. and i had a nice headache earlier.
all of this is just so unsettling. i try to anticipate how i'm going to feel. and a lot of the feelings in my body are new...and odd...and so it just amplifies an alien-like feeling. which is totally unsettling and hard.
*sigh*
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
-Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi 1207-1273, written in 1230
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Oh, Megan, my heart ached as I read your posting this morning. I wish I could wave a magic wand and take away the most difficult part right now - the unsettling, the not-knowing, the wondering each morning how you'll feel and how to go with it, the seeming loss of control over how your body feels......but you're doing everything you might on this journey, and it will pass, and you will be well!
Holding you in my heart in Provincetown,
Linda
Good Tuesday morning, Meghan...
I'm sending you a big hug for today, and every day...
Meghan,
Hoping that, now that it's Tuesday, that the rollercoaster has made its downward descent and that you are feeling well...and better!
Thinking of you,
Much love
erica
Good Morning, Meggie,
Hope you have as beautiful a day there as we have here today and that you will be able to go out and feel the sun on your face and the breeze in your hair. Hope today you are feeling stronger and more comfortable than yesterday and that tomorrow will be even better than today.
Let Eric and Patrick take good care of you and nuzzle Kitty.
Love,
sandy :-)
I love thinking that Patrick ANNNd Eric are waiting on you hand and foot...how neat is that! Even when you feel better, don't let on and alter a good deal. Would I love to be there waiting on you hand and foot? You bet! Much love to all of you.
Susan
Dear Meghan,
Just dropping in on this warm sunny Wednesday in Provincetown to let you know you're in my thoughts.
Linda
Good Thursday morning, Meghan:
It's raining on the bay, a beautiful, cleansing rain, and I've been watching it and thinking of you being cleansed!!
Oh, yes, you look wonderful in the new robe!
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