but...i don't want to have my second round of chemo!
i feel so good right now. and i don't want to be nauseous. i don't want to be tired. i don't want to have a weird taste in my mouth. isn't having only one boob and no hair enough for you people?
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
-Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi 1207-1273, written in 1230
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Yes, Meghan, it should be enough, but there are a few more steps to take - alone - but you'll do it with the knowledge that your support system, both with you in person and with you on this blog, will be there for you. You won't be alone. A little poem written by an 8 year old boy came to mind when I was writing this to you:
"Alone Walk"
When I walk I see deer
saying, “there’s no fear,
have faith in yourself.”
So I fight the darkness
saying nothing can stop me
not even the river.
~ By Javier
Love,
Linda
no, I am afraid not. I am not going to be happy until you have at least one wooden arm to hit me in the head with. sorry. oh, and I love you love you love you. even if you have a weird taste in your mouth.
Dearest Meggie,
Aw,man! This makes me want to use the kind of language my mother used to smack me for saying. Grrrrrrrrrrr. Make the most of today and remember how good you will feel again soon--just like you do now!
I'll be with you tomorrow!!
Love,
sandy :-)
Dear Meghan,
Just want you to know I'm still holding you in my heart and will be thinking of you all day tomorrow.
Hugs,
Linda
xo...
know that we are thinking of you!!
hang in there!!
Meghan
Sending you loads of love and good karma from Sterling, MA for tomorrow....
erica
Dear Meghan,
You're not alone today - remember all the love that pours out of this blog as you get your second round of the protocol.
Love,
Linda
Just think... one foot further to being finished with this part. You are getting closer... you will not have to do this forever. You will not be bald, have a nasty taste in your mouth and want to throw up, forever, this is temporary. (Although you are quite cute bald...hair is cool) I know what you mean about never feeling like you had cancer... well you did. But now you don't... you are Cancer Free.... this process you are going through is just to ensure that this body you live in will not be sick again. This is the first day of the rest of your life. You are alive, healthy and more beautiful than ever... you are being healed my friend. (I think this is truly the definition of irony) The love you are receiving is for a purpose. Hugs and lemondrops.
Meghan,
You are so strong and determined. Keep on inspiring us all. You are certainly beautiful with or without hair. I don't know if you have heard about this book yet, perhaps it will help. love, Tina Green
http://www.crazysexycancer.com/
Dear Meg,
Funny that we both kept our hair below our shoulders all these years. Thanks for sharing the photos.
Your short hair is stunningly beautiful. You are courageous and truly inspiring.
Thinking of you lots. With love,
Nicole
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