i'm having the hardest time writing this next entry.
i've been thinking about it since saturday when everyone was at my house. but it's too hard. i truly don't feel that i have words to describe saturday.
i wrote a thank you to everyone that was there with me. and i said that the hair chopping experience could have been extremely messy. i have had long hair since i was...6? since then, it hasn't been shorter than my shoulders. and now? it hasn't been this short in thirty-two years. since 1975.
and...as you all know...my hair was my thing. i never dressed fancy. i never had any fancy earrings. barely makeup. my hair was enough to make me feel pretty.
so...it could've been a very traumatic, scary experience. but it wasn't. and the ONLY reason it wasn't was because my friends were there. we had so much fun. and the fact that eric, jay, and taylor all chopped their hair off, too? i mean. i just really can't even talk about it.
i was talking to taylor yesterday about our new hairdos. and i tried to thank her. she was like (all calmly), "of course...i knew it would hard for you. and i knew it would be easier if someone else was doing it with you." point blank. as if it was the easiest thought process ever.
speechless.
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
-Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi 1207-1273, written in 1230
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6 comments:
You were a beautiful baby......breathtakingly beautiful. People used to stop me on the street to look at you. Your hair became your crowning glory and rightly so, but seeing you without it reminded me what a beautiful person you are without it AND more importantly who you are inside. I have so much admiration, respect and love for you.....You leave ME speechless.
Mom XXOO
One more comment.....I cannot even begin to thank Eric, Taylor and Jay for giving up their "locks" for Meghan...... and Julie, Dave, Moss and Anne for their HUGE involvement in making an unpleasant experience a very fun and memorable one. You guys are THE BEST!!!
Judy (Meghan's mom)
I have been sitting here trying to figure what to write, so that it would sound genuine--but girl, you look gorgeous with your shorty shorty almost no hair. seriously. (my friends and I have a short hand for when you feel like people are giving a compliment just because they love you "this is like my mom saying I look pretty in a prom dress" b/c moms have to say that. b/c they always think you look good...)but that is not what this is. no pity. I looked at the pictures expecting to feel sad and teary and instead I smiled (with a few teary moments...but more emotional overall at the love in the silliness in that room...)
but really really. with those ridiculous eyes of yours? maybe it feels like shit, but you look good. (can I swear here? aren't there bigger problems than my crass-ness?)
your people are the best. that is fantastic. plus two.
thinking of you. admiring the woman you are, from the girl I knew...
lots of love and respect. always.
-Laura
Dearest Meggie,
How wonderful to be surrounded and embraced with such wisdom and compassion!! What special people you and your circle are! And I second your mom's sentiments about admiring, respecting and loving you.
Big hugs to you, Eric and Kitty.
Love,
sandy :-)
I just checked out the pictures, and although your hair was a distinguishing feature, you look GORGEOUS without it. Really striking. You've got the face for it. I'm so glad you had that kind of support around you. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. So much love.
I would shave mine with you, but I'm bald as hell! - You do have a great group of friends...and I thought your smile was always better than your hair..plus your good nature and everything else....all the best, chuckLynel
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