...and actually, even i were brave enough and even if i were not-superstitious enough...i still don't even KNOW what time my surgery is scheduled for!
i have to call kaiser surgery department first thing in the morning to find out when they want me there. i feel like whatever they say i will not believe them. i should do the exact opposite of what they tell me. they tell me to get there as soon as i can. oh yeah? i'll mosey on in at 5. god, so frustrating. i have no confidence in them.
now...my *surgeon* i still love and adore and trust. it's just all the other people there.
...
shoot.
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shouldn't i be thinking positively?
grrrrrr.
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
-Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi 1207-1273, written in 1230
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1 comment:
Yes, you should be thinking positively, and you already are, deep down inside, because trust in your surgeon is paramount. He won't let anything bad happen to you. I like your 'mosey on in" attitude, though!!! Thinking of you.
Linda
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