i have been ace-bandaged up since surgery. and it's all surreal. maybe the surgery didn't really happen.
tomorrow i meet with the nurse to make sure everything is healing well. i'm excited for the reveal. but really, really nervous. i keep thinking about the last surgery. last time i felt f-i-n-e fine until i took the ace bandage off. and then my body just started to KILL. i'm so nervous that's what's going to happen to me this time. so far...i feel good. not too much pain. i can sleep. i can move slowly. and i'm just so nervous it'll take a turn for the worse. (!!)
we'll see. tomorrow. 10:30.
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
-Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi 1207-1273, written in 1230
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4 comments:
Meghan, I love your use of the word 'reveal' - it's full of hope, promise, excitement, wonder...I'm so glad you're feeling well enough to sleep! Take care,
Linda
I, too, like your word choice -- I'm imagining a drum roll, a stage and a red velvet curtain. No audience though -- that would be weird.
by the way, Meghan, I stood in line at the Stop & Shop today behind Mary Oliver. Told her how her poetry had reached you from far and wide, friends and family, and she was so pleased that her words made sense to you...she said she'll keep you in her thoughts...me, too!
Hope all is going well with you. Thinking of you every day!
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